Sometimes being stiff, rigid and relentless doesn’t make you strong rather love, tears and hardships do. Sometimes the person you love , hurts you. Sometimes, an unexpected thing just happens and turns your life upside down. Sometimes, you can feel so full that you might be overflowing with joy and happiness. Sometimes you can feel so empty , it’s like you are caught up in a world of perplexities , loneliness and darkness. And sometimes no matter how hard you try to push away a thought, it kind of just stays in the air. Sometimes you know everything and still know nothing. You could be standing in the front of truth , a truth that can hurt you deeply , & is capable of shattering your heart into a million pieces and still not know what to do. Sometimes you just want someone to hold your hand and say,”stay!”. But you see, that’s how life is. Life isn’t a garden with roses, bougainvillea’s , daisies or orchids rather it’s a battlefield. Life breaks you, it makes you suffer, it punches you in the face, it makes you breathless, it gives you pain. Life isn’t one word , rather it carries with it an infinite sea of words and phrases. Life is a lot of things. Life is pain. Life is ecstasy. Life is misery. Life is contentment. Life is heartbreaks. Life is darkness. Life is suffering. Life is a million things but most importantly ,maybe, life is just a delusion.
Life is a chaos , so are you and so is everyone, but the real talk is about handling your chaos , facing your fears , destroying what destroys you, loving yourself , and saying what your feel. You cannot simply run away from things ,you have to learn to fall and stand taller.
Sometimes you can’t tell a person , how you feel. Even if their are endless ways of describing what you feel, sometimes the only answer is silence , sometimes you just have to feel. It’s so beautiful , how words become short to express your feelings, and still the other person hears what is said in the unsaid.
Sometimes you don’t what you’re feeling,
Sometimes you don’t know what to say,
Sometimes it feels as if darkness is engulfing you,
You’re tired of making people stay,
You’re tired of people walking out,
You show that it doesn’t affect you who’s there and who’s not,
but when it really does,
You just want someone to understand what you’re trying to say,
You want someone to value your presence,
And for once,
Just for once,
You want someone to be scared with the thought of you walking out of their life.
It’s been a long time now, and I’d like to bring this up and for good. You were everything before you broke me. don’t say that I never tried , because everytime I tried to forgive your mistakes , you stabbed my heart mercilessly. I tried to hold on. I tried to stay and maybe one day you’ll feel my void , you’ll yearn for my voice and you’ll look for me everywhere, but you won’t be able to find me. Because you lost me. And trust me, for good.
It’s so easy for them,
to say a ‘goodbye’ when you’re at your worst,
to leave you when ‘need’ them the most,
to go ahead when you’re ‘calling’ them,
And to say that loving you was their ‘mistake’,
When you fell for them by that ‘mistake’.
Some days you’re on the verge of breaking down, because you’re tired of what you are. It’s a feeling that leaves you empty, and you feel the world is breaking down and so are you. But you still hold on, not for you but for the little things, that tell you, “Live a little more.”
Sometimes you don’t need to keep reminiscing the past and the memories you made. Sometimes, you need to let go the memories and the sound of their laugh and the awkward moments. No matter how hard you try to push it away, it kind of stays in the air. Don’t blame yourself you were too much for them. They weren’t just enough for you.
Let’s dance to the melody
of our love.
And from the day,